The Start
It all started around the end of September 2003. It was turning out to be a bit of a tough couple of months. Simon was in the process of being made redundant, his company had been brought out, but he was one of a few who had been offered a job by the new buyers so at least he had a job even if it was not the one he had been doing before, I had been struggling with trying to balance everything and was signed off sick with stress from my job, we also were organising our wedding which was set for November 29 th , so things were very hectic and to be honest even though I had been feeling really unwell, not feeling to good lack of appetite and lots of headaches and very tired I just thought I was over doing it, the last thing to ever cross my mind in my wildest thoughts was I could be pregnant.
So when as usual I had my weekly appointment with my doctor to see how things were going, I just accepted his diagnosis of you are very stressed. But even though I had no reason to disbelieve him I just felt so different and knew I was not imagining it. I don't know why but I went with my gut reaction and in the end I bought myself a pregnancy test, not believing it could be anything like that not even knowing if I was late as I had such an irregular cycle. But I couldn't shake off the feeling strange lack of appetite and feeling like all I wanted to do was sleep. So after coming back from Tesco's I did the pregnancy test without even thinking about it just was ruling out something that in my mind was impossible. Simon was excitedly setting up the surround sound system for the new television/DVD we had just brought as he did I got one of the biggest shocks of my life. It consisted of two blue lines and the only things I could say when I showed Simon were;
Oh my god I am pregnant, how can I be pregnant? and my wedding dress won't fit me we still have 8 weeks to go before the wedding. And how am I going to cope with childbirth I can't cope with pain.
Consultation With Hinchingbrooke Hospital
9 July, 2006
